Thursday, May 5, 2011

What Had Happened Was...

You know when you can tell someone doesn't want to say what they need to because they are ashamed and/or embarrassed? Like when a person starts out a sentence with "What had happened was*..."?
Well, you see...what had happened was...I have been lazy. I am terribly sorry. Forgive me, will you? I could go on and on and continue with my what-had-happened-was attitude, but I won't. I could offer you plenty of reasons why I haven't been doing what I should be doing, but lets be honest...they'd all just be excuses (and some of them not even GOOD ones) anyway. So instead I will just be completely open and update you on the status of previously mentioned goals set forth on this here blog.
I wonder if I should start with the good news or the bad?? Oh what the whole "being physically fit" thing...not "working out" so well. Pun intended. Once again, I could go into a long list of reason why but I will spare you. Bottom line...I have failed to do what I said I would do. I will mention that I haven't been a complete sloth void of any sort of activity for the past 5 months (sort of impossible when you are the mother of an 18-month-old boy) I just haven't been really aggressive about losing the weight I want to lose. Bummer. I'm trying to just move on with life though and keep telling myself that I can do it. I have a gym membership and I go semi-regularly. I need to just go ultra-regularly. Scratch that...religiously. I need to quit making excuses for not going and just go. I always feel good after I leave the gym and I never regret my decision to work out. Not working out on the other hand often leaves me feeling like a giant loser. SO...I haven't given up hope just yet. *Note: I have just been informed that Starbucks now has Coconut flavoring again. God help me...Good thing the closest Starbucks is not close enough to justify multiple trips.
Ok...GOOD NEWS! Our goal to become financially fit is coming along quite nicely. It's not as if we snapped our fingers and decided we wanted to be debt free and then woke up rich (although that would be nice, huh?) but we did come together in our marriage and decide that enough was enough. No more credit cards, no more debt. Period. I gotta tell is a huge relief! Actually, the problem with my thinking before this whole revelation was that I thought to myself "It is just TOO scary to think about living without a credit card...I mean...what if we NEED something??" HAH! Well, I can honestly say...doing without things that I definitely do NOT need (but may think I do) is so, so, so much easier than living with the guilt and the fear that comes with having a huge credit card bill and debt hanging over your head. As I said before, it's not like we came to this realization and then magically woke up debt free but the point is...we will be. We are on our way and it feels GREAT! It is amazing what paying off something does to your momentum when you are on a debt-freedness mission!! Not to mention the lack of arguing that takes place when you and your husband are on the same page about finances...seriously...amazing. Let me just say that we (obviously) still argue now and then...who doesn't? But we are in such exponentially greater places as far as communication about finances go and it is glorious. ***sigh of relief***
So, there you have it. I'm not perfect. Nowhere close actually, but I at least try to do some things right. Hang in there with me and if you think of it say a prayer that I stay away from the Coconut White Mochas and stay close to the gym!!!

PS...Clearly by my stating the desire to frequent Starbucks, I am also failing in the "No Caffeine" department...oops.

*I am aware that this phrase is ridiculous and quite comical. If you didn't already, please read the above entry with a drawl over the words "What had happened was..." You won't regret it.